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Emma Winter Welsh's avatar

This is beautiful, thank you so much for writing it. Interesting to note re Setraline (which I’m on now, due to a scaryish episode of PND) - I can totally imagine your worry, but also the relief that he and you were both fine šŸ’—

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Grace Pengelly's avatar

thank you Emma - sending PND solidarity and love to you x

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Rob's avatar

Stunning!! Much love to you all! Xx

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Elizabeth Wainwright's avatar

ā€œAt one point I remember thinking to myself that I just had no choice but to surrender to this processā€ — I remember thinking exactly this during the birth of our daughter, and finally allowing my body to take over, and what a profound and empowering feeling it was. Thanks for sharing Grace, and I’m glad you were all cared for well xx PS - West Wing! Hot Sauce! two of my faves šŸ˜

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Nonsense's avatar

Ha me too. I had just enough time before the next contraction to realise that if I were in a hospital, I would be asking for an epidural about now

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Sarah Linnell's avatar

Thank you Grace. Enjoy your 2 little ones. My 3 are almost all 50 + and I'm remembering their births today šŸ’ž

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Erin Clark's avatar

Never cared much for birth stories until I became pregnant -- and now I can't get enough of them. Thank you for sharing yours with all its ups and downs.

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Cassia Stevens's avatar

Thank you for sharing this vulnerable moment so eloquently. You captured so much of the detail. It took me straight back to the births of my children (the first one 25 years ago) - none home births. But every detail etched on my memory. The magic and the horror! Congrats!

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Jayne Manfredi's avatar

Beautiful xxx

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Grace Pengelly's avatar

šŸ’š

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Phyllis's avatar

Such a beautifully delineated entrance into this breathing world. Thank you for this so full of love and grit.

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Grace Pengelly's avatar

Thank you Phyllis šŸ’š

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Joanna Wolfarth's avatar

What an incredible read - thank you for sharing. I had a homebirth with my second too, against guidance but with the full support of my consultant and the midwives. It was the most extraordinary, powerful experience of my life. We transferred afterwards too, but for far less urgent and worrying reasons. Wishing you all the best! x

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Grace Pengelly's avatar

thank you Joanna - it really is a minefield to navigate all the advice x

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Clare's avatar

This is a beautiful piece, thank you. Echoes of my first son's birth, which began as a homebirth but escalated to hospital, which was where he needed to be (and spent two weeks in NICU being cared for by the most phenomenal nurses and doctors). Similarly perhaps to you and Owen, I remember the birth and the eventual, wonderful outcome, my husband mostly remembers the terror of the in-between. Wishing you all the wonder of this wild moment.

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Grace Pengelly's avatar

yes in many ways it’s worse for the partner isn’t it. So glad your story had a happy ending - the in between is so scary.

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Jane Graham Maw's avatar

I love your writing Grace, this is a very special piece.

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Grace Pengelly's avatar

šŸ’ššŸ’ššŸ’š

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